Race Dumbfuckery

October 12th 2017

I’m off today and tomorrow. Inventory for Walmart has finally come to an end and, as far as I’m concerned, the department has been reset to ‘zero’ and I am responsible (more or less) for the future of toys/sporting goods.

A few things happened recently. I’ve been working a lot of hours and way too tired to jot down anything to this journal.

The most important understanding I got this week is ignorant and stupid people come in both flavors of White and Black. My hate for White Ignorant people is a notch higher due to their history, but the results are the same: idiots and dumbfuckery.

My complaints about the low mentality of Blacks in the area is already documented. Shuffling dumb-fucks that can’t complain about hunger with their obese-asses.

Now, we have a lot of country-fuck White people: fucking long-beard mountain pussy’s that walk about as if this was still the civil war era. 

Yesterday, this fuck was in my sporting good department and, typically, at the ammo lock-up. One thing you got to understand about White people as a whole and especially dumb-fuck country White people: they buy each other weapons as a fucking gift and constantly stocking up on ammo. Since I started this job, issuing ammo to people, you really get a look at a cross section of ‘fear’.

I’ve been saying for years upon years: if you need to carry, flash or praise the use of guns, you’re a coward. 

It’s always about you need a gun for some future self-defense purpose but when the purpose arrives, the overwhelming majority of gun owners are usually the ones shooting up the place in the first place. Take Las Vegas for instance during a recent mass shooting — you can’t defend yourself from a sniper perch and those who won’t support gun control are likely the dead ones. Often always White.

Assholes.

So serves them right when they die.

Anyway, this fucker wants to see a knife in a lock up. I tell him, he can only see one at a time and he gets belligerent about it. Starts getting really loud and I tell him to lower his voice or he won’t get shit. He looks like he wants to call me a nigger but I’m bigger than him and I’m staring in his eyes like I’ll slice his throat with his own knife.

Another problem with White people, as this was the second time this sort of thing happened. They don’t think rules and policy apply to them. Even worse when a Black man is telling them to sit the fuck down. Now you know why they hated President Obama so much. ANY Black man over them is an issue.

So here I am: a Black man telling this asshole what to do.

So he wants to see the manager and I flatly tell him ‘no’. I lock up the cage and walk away.

I know this whole experience pissed him off. Oddly enough, it didn’t get me as mad as I thought it would. Yes, I was a little steamed but to be honest, I felt a little sad for the fool. Let’s go back to the ‘above and beyond’ conversation. This little man meant nothing to me and he was just more annoying than anything else.

White Nationalists are crying fowl that they are being erased from history and I agree with them. Like a cornered rat, they are lashing out with the gun violence and marches with their fagot tiki torches. How cute is that? Pussies.

In the end, I put the fear into that man and he just barked like the dog he was.

Next lesson for the week: I’m letting my hate for the police obscure my educational pursuits.

I just took a preliminary test asking questions about what the police can do for the community. I answered the questions based on what they ‘should’ be doing for the community as opposed to what they actually do and I got things wrong.

I’m not sure how mad I am that the police don’t really do shit for the community based on common sense or I’m mad that I got the answers wrong in the first place. 

Either way, I have to adjust my thinking and come to grips that the ‘facts’ about the police suck and my hate is justified … but to pass these classes, I have to, once again, shut the fuck up and keep moving forward.