December 8th 2017
Walmart is killing me.
Suffice to say, working with ANYONE is killing me. I’m officially incapable of negotiating with, working with, leading and being led by other people. Constantly battling common sense verses peoples ridiculous egos and poor leadership. Having no power creates conflict and who wants the power to lead these idiots?
If it’s not Walmart, it’s even at my university. I have a bitch-of-a-professor teaching Presentation 111. You can’t say anything without her arrogant ass snapping at you other students. She’s a fucked up teacher and I have to stick to the letter of the law in order to get around this cunt. This is the same one that fucked me with the B- until she realized she wasn’t grading correctly.
The less I have to deal with her the better. Just a week left anyway.
But you see, I can go through life CONSTANTLY saying: I don’t have to work with so-n-so for long. Just a few more days. Just a few more months. Just a few more years. The question is: when will the people you work with fucking grow up or lead better? When will they change? The answer is never and you’re dealt with learning to have to deal with stupidity instead of stupidity needing to change.
Now, alternatively, stupidity is relative. They could be thinking they are on the right path. My judgement of shit that isn’t working is based on how much shit rolls downhill to me that I have to deal with. Miscommunication. Combative upper management with conflicting orders.
Cunt teachers that have an attitude all the time.
I’d ask myself how I dealt with past jobs when I had such conflict and you’ll then know why I had so many jobs over my life time. I can’t leave this one. Not again. But I’m angry. Always angry. I dread going into the job. I have no outlet to scream, yell, punch …nothing.
I am happy with the progress with my education, though. Of course, I love my children.Knowing that I have insurance for them and some money coming in every two weeks is reassuring. These are the things that stay my anger. Not for long, though. Tomorrow is another day. I have to go in.
I’m doing homework and assignments due tonight. I’m sitting on this idea to give the regional and store manager a health report of my department at Walmart that would end up feeling like a thesis for school. I’m sitting on it because it means I’m committing myself to giving a fuck about Walmart if I write it. But Walmart doesn’t give a fuck about me so why should I produce a 20 page ‘what I want to do for my department’?
Especially if retail isn’t my end goal.We confirmed that weeks ago. This is temporary. Just two ½ more years. (Eyes rolling).
On other news, I’m noticing that the world is in turmoil. Much more than usual. In recent months, maybe over the past year and a half, it seems like a nationalist movement is taking over globally and, recently, old racial differences are flaring up. Even major political figures are claiming “times were better in the past, even though there was slavery.” (Roy Moore, Alabama). And this man isn’t shot dead yet? Nope, as of this date, he might even win a major race going on in Alabama right now.
Trump is president and the world just gotten eviler. People are being outed on sexual harassment charges daily. Politicians admitting to sexual harassment are still thinking they’ll stay in office. Trump himself wins the office even though he said blatantly foul things.
But President Obama was forced to reveal his birth certificate to prove he was American.
White nationalists, the new PC term for racist bastard, need to be eradicated. Sooner than later, they’re going to get the war they’re looking for by doing something stupid. Odd thing is, for eight years, they had a chance to do so with president Obama in office. I’m sure he had more than his fair share of death threats; but that exemplifies the cowardice of these nationalists. They waited until someone like Trump to get in office to talk big. I don’t recall this much noise for eight years. Not like this. For eight years, Blacks in this county came behind President Obama and showcased for all to see we outnumber them.
Which is the problem with the brainwashing of ‘voting’. A group of people put one man in office, they think they are the majority. Trumps in office because the majority DID NOT VOTE. I think I covered this in a previous post.
Look, I can figure things out enough to say the world is burning and I can’t do anything about it. Even if Trump was assassinated, the whole mode of world events will only herald a darker, worse series of events that likely lock down everything. Truth be told, Trump and the White Nationalists don’t directly affect me. At least, not until I get into a law firm. Walmart does and I’m much more aggravated by the people that work there than world events. I can’t solve world hunger. I can make sure my kids eat.
This is why people put on blinders. You have to disconnect. Otherwise you’ll be angry all the time.
Update: December 14th 2017
Roy Moore LOST the Alabama Senate race. Why? Because the majority — African-Americans — turned out and voted. Proof, as I mentioned, it’s not that Trump won by majority. It’s more like the majority didn’t vote. He won by what’s left over. By default cause Blacks, really didn’t vote for Clinton either. If a qualified Black politician (underscore—qualified), ran for president against Trump, he would have been a distant joking memory.
“ …a full 96 percent of Black voters in Alabama Tuesday supported Jones, including 98 percent of African-American women. “Black women led us to victory. Black women are the backbone of the Democratic party,” Democratic National Committee chairman Tom Perez tweeted Wednesday morning, “and we can’t take that for granted. Period."
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