February 28th 2018
The feeling i lifeless, pointless existence and I can’t shake it.
Sure, autonomously doing school work still. Dropped out of this career advantage course because it required I speak to a career coach. I am in no mental state to speak to anyone. I feel deep down it was a bad idea to quit that program but at the same time I dreaded the idea of constantly looking at my fucked up resume and talking to anyone about how worthless I already know I am.
I would take my own life if I knew how to do it without making mistakes. This is one of those days I wished I’d actually own a gun. I would have shot my brains out days ago. Today. Right now.
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