April 3rd, 2018
Very much like sending out my book to ask for reviews, I loathe the sending out of my resume for a job. It’s selling of oneself when I hate who I am, really. Or haven’t much positive to say about myself to sell who I am. I simply don’t know how. The energy isn’t there to answer “why should you hire me?” when I can’t truly answer it.
At least with books, I basically want people to judge the work, not ‘me’. I am not my work if that makes any sense. My characters are not entirely who I am. They are smarter than I am. They have different flaws.
One problem I am having is my resume is a jumble of different jobs.
Frustrated to no end. I’m even questioning if getting a bachelor’s degree will even solve anything. I ‘sound’ like I have a game plan, but I still have a rotten work history with three years before getting my degree.
I will not work at McDonald’s.
I gave Walmart 150% and you read the shit I put myself through. I’m not a people person so customer service is not going to work.
Bottomline: I need to win the lottery, pay all my debts, have the money to position my work in front of everybody and vanish from the public eye. Achieve a Bachelor’s Degree without concern for how I’ll pay for Law School and achieve these things leisurely.
Cause right now, I’m nervous about my future.
I guess I have to actually play the lottery for that to happen.
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