July 31st, 2018
It’s been a good couple of weeks. My mother was nice to send a care-package of a good deal of money and I was able to to take care of a lot of pressing things. Cash is almost gone but I believe I did what was right. Saving is almost impossible.
So I bought some Adrafinil. A nootropic medicine that helps with focus, alertness and possibly depression. It’s the stuff I wanted to buy after the last selection seemed to bottom out. Technically, now that U have Adrafinil, I should try it with the Coluracetam and Alpha-GPC and check the results.
As directed, I took it this morning on an empty stomach around 6:30am. By 8am, I think I started feeling the effects. Those effects wore off by around 11am-12pm, but continued to show it’s usefulness later in the day and even now (it’s 5:50pm).
What are those effects?
Well, you know it’s always the goal to find an over-the-counter Adderall. Still, it’s not Adderall, but it’s better than not having it.
Basically, my issue is this clouded mind; unable to think straight. Focus seems to shift from one direction to another. Then of course there’s the depression. The inability to focus and think straight leads to depression when you turn around and find you can’t do shit. It would make anyone depressed.
Adderall took that cloud in my brain and washed it away; clearing that thick-clouded feeling away for pure absolute thought on any one thing I want to think about. It was great.
This stuff, Adrafinil … well, it comes close. Not a total clearing of the cloud, but I was extremely alert and allowed me to do work that I would have otherwise procrastinated about. It was like, “I need to go tot he store” so, without feeling that tired, don’t want to be bothered’ emotion, I was able to go and get the shopping done without feeling any kind of way about it. Sounds corny, I know. It’s the best way I can explain it. It’s not speed. It didn’t get me high.
But I was ‘active’. Things I wanted to get done, I did. Things I needed to say to people, I did.
Whereas the Coluracetam was a mood lightener — Adrafinil was a “stop being a lazy bastard” motivator with an ounce of clarity. But it was a strange clarity. That’s why I always compare things to Adderall. With Adderall, I saw EVERYTHING and soaked it in.
With Adrafinil, I still felt a bit clouded but the best way to picture it is: you have a clouded mind, right? Then only a portion of it is clear depending on where you are focusing. Not 100% but just enough for whatever you’re doing. Backed with a sense of energy.
But when it wore off, I knew it. I was yawning. I was getting annoyed with everyone around me whereas I was extremely tolerant for the four-five hours prior.
No headaches. No issues. At least not for me. My wife took it and it wore off about the same time, but she claimed not to have any further clarity at all.
Since I’m the trouble case, my eval is of more priority than her’s.
I still want my hands on Adderall, but I think I’m finding my right Nootropic setup.
Tomorrow, I’ll try the collection:
One (1) Adrafinil
One (1) Coluracetam
One (1) Alpha-GPC
I’ll report how the day went. I still have the L-Theanine, but I think that’s more of a counter-active med to prevent any jitters.
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