January 21st 2018

Nothing much to report. These have been very ‘basic’ days. Again, no drama. No muss-no fuss. Probably just the way I like them to be.

I’m proactively working on the ‘project’ and I’m running into road blocks. Call it ‘limited’ knowledge of mechanical engineering, but I won’t let that stop me.If I stopped to studying engineering, this project won’t be done for another 5 years.

So, it’s learning along the way. One thing that must be noted here: I’ve been learning a lot of things rapidly. It shows in my grades, as well.

Interesting thing: I have ALWAYS self-taught myself many things but with no grading system to judge me by until now.

I’ve started the LSAT study process. Digging deep into the methods to understand logic questions and such. I practice on a weekly basis. 

Freecodcamp is still going well as well as the IT job hunt (help desk support, really). Funny thing: If I could go back to Apple, I certainly would. I don’t want to go over that previous meltdown I had there. LOL. No, I don’t want to go over that at all.

Suffice to say, I’m managing my depression so much better OFF medication than I was trying to stay on it.

My secret: Purpose. 

I have a defined purpose and my depression isn’t a priority anymore. Oh, don’t get me wrong — it haunts me in the background like a shadow in the corner, but my purpose: the ‘project’, my grades, my new career in IT … all these things keep me centered, or at best, I know where to center myself if I get a little low. Keep in mind: the majority of my issue is chemical. I don’t control when it comes — but I control how to tuck it the side, sort of speak.

So today’s entry is all about moving forward. Nothing to report except forward motion.

And I am grateful.