Tag: freecodecamp

Project Forward Motion

January 21st 2018

Nothing much to report. These have been very ‘basic’ days. Again, no drama. No muss-no fuss. Probably just the way I like them to be.

I’m proactively working on the ‘project’ and I’m running into road blocks. Call it ‘limited’ knowledge of mechanical engineering, but I won’t let that stop me.If I stopped to studying engineering, this project won’t be done for another 5 years.

So, it’s learning along the way. One thing that must be noted here: I’ve been learning a lot of things rapidly. It shows in my grades, as well.

Interesting thing: I have ALWAYS self-taught myself many things but with no grading system to judge me by until now.

I’ve started the LSAT study process. Digging deep into the methods to understand logic questions and such. I practice on a weekly basis. 

Freecodcamp is still going well as well as the IT job hunt (help desk support, really). Funny thing: If I could go back to Apple, I certainly would. I don’t want to go over that previous meltdown I had there. LOL. No, I don’t want to go over that at all.

Suffice to say, I’m managing my depression so much better OFF medication than I was trying to stay on it.

My secret: Purpose. 

I have a defined purpose and my depression isn’t a priority anymore. Oh, don’t get me wrong — it haunts me in the background like a shadow in the corner, but my purpose: the ‘project’, my grades, my new career in IT … all these things keep me centered, or at best, I know where to center myself if I get a little low. Keep in mind: the majority of my issue is chemical. I don’t control when it comes — but I control how to tuck it the side, sort of speak.

So today’s entry is all about moving forward. Nothing to report except forward motion.

And I am grateful.

Productive

January 9th, 2018

Interesting thing: the other day, I was feeling the work I’m doing in school was lifeless and autonomous. I know it’s going in a great direction, but I was honestly feeling I had no particular joy out of it. I was going through the motions and was momentarily confused about what the end goal was. I started filling up my time with more educational pursuits: freecodecamp.org, studying Spanish, studying how to play the guitar, etc. None of it is fulfilling to the heart, but satisfying to the mind. Like eating healthy food you don’t necessarily care for, you know it’s good for you, but ‘meh’.

For a moment, it was all lifeless until I focused on that project I haven’t mentioned. I’m building something and that ‘spark’ — a purpose — revitalized me.

I won’t make the mistakes of the past: thinking a project can replace the progress in academics.

Regarding this project, it’s going to be bookmark in history. Having said that, I really have to start ‘wanting’ to talk to people because I’ll need to in order for this to work. In the meantime, I’m constructing. How am I paying for it while not working? Sigh … I depleted the Apple 401(k). It’s a risk worth taking. I’m planning and narrowing my vision to whats necessary to spend on production correctly. 

This thing — I will succeed in.