Back to Lying

April 6th, 2018

Up until now, I have been using a fairly honest resume to look for work. This based on the tools and help I’ve received from career services. I thought this would be the way to go to get the job in IT that I’m looking for. My thinking was, I’m doing well in school and I want to have a clean slate.

The problem with that was I forgot I knew how the world worked. I’m being rejected for the simplest jobs.

Prior to this resume, I’ve lied every inch of my resume to remove bad jobs and time differences. Never had trouble getting work with my falsified resumes until I tried to go legit.

The break is over. I need a job and being honest sucks ass.

I’m fairly elaborate on my resume creation skills. Even down to alibi people/services and prop websites/emails/etc. That’s how I scored the Apple position a few years back. And never kicked out of a job for false information. It’s not like I post that I have a bachelors when I didn’t. It’s all about credible, retrievable information. Besides, I’m not white enough to say I graduated from Harvard and get away with it up to executive level. Like these guys:

http://money.cnn.com/2012/05/13/technology/yahoo-ceo-out/index.htm

http://www.businessinsider.com/successful-executives-who-have-lied-on-their-resumes-2015-7

Yeah, they get caught, but not after making six figures for a few years. I try something like that and because I’m black, they suddenly have due diligence searches to make sure. Guaranteed.

But at this low level of the hiring spectrum, I play the system I know so well.

So, set the timer. It’s Friday, April 6th. By the end of the weekend, I’ll have the things in place to send out an ‘enhanced’ resume and work this job search the way it works. I’ll have an interview, at a minimum, before April lets out. Better than what I’m getting now of three months of rejections.

You know, at one time, I thought to offer services to others to be that employment gap they’re looking for. Even receive calls to give the appropriate references. Including pay stubs.

By now, I’m sure that idea is already being done.

Applying for Work

April 3rd, 2018

Very much like sending out my book to ask for reviews, I loathe the sending out of my resume for a job. It’s selling of oneself when I hate who I am, really. Or haven’t much positive to say about myself to sell who I am. I simply don’t know how. The energy isn’t there to answer “why should you hire me?” when I can’t truly answer it.

At least with books, I basically want people to judge the work, not ‘me’. I am not my work if that makes any sense. My characters are not entirely who I am. They are smarter than I am. They have different flaws.

One problem I am having is my resume is a jumble of different jobs.

Frustrated to no end. I’m even questioning if getting a bachelor’s degree will even solve anything. I ‘sound’ like I have a game plan, but I still have a rotten work history with three years before getting my degree.

I will not work at McDonald’s. 

I gave Walmart 150% and you read the shit I put myself through. I’m not a people person so customer service is not going to work.

Bottomline: I need to win the lottery, pay all my debts, have the money to position my work in front of everybody and vanish from the public eye. Achieve a Bachelor’s Degree without concern for how I’ll pay for Law School and achieve these things leisurely. 

Cause right now, I’m nervous about my future.

I guess I have to actually play the lottery for that to happen.