March 31st, 2018

I’ve been struggling with this professor for my SCIE210 class. Two of my reports got C’s (out of three, with one that I got an A).

The problem is like this:

The assignment wants me to do A-B-C.

I do A-B-C to the letter.

She takes points off A for not being more concise. B for something else. C for something else also. Meanwhile, I did everything by the assignment and she’s taking points off from ghost parameters that only she yay’s or nays. I have half a mind to write her and ask “what the fuck? Are these reports subjective reviews now?”

But I’m not writing her and I’m writing here instead. Venting because I don’t think the grading was fair — but at the same time, arguing about her opinion is futile.

You see, I would argue down blatant bad grades, yes. I admit I could have filled out more information in my reports, even though I know I probably do better than half my class. This one is … it’s like someone reading my book and I argue the case why they are wrong for a bad review.

I don’t understand if reports are supposed to be like this or not. Where the professor is giving an opinion rather than grade based on a rubric. I watched movies where that seemed to be the constant battle. 

You know something…I’m sending her an email anyway. 

No, I won’t. Just sick of this professor and looking forward to moving on. Truth is, I’ll probably have more like her and my job is to make every report ‘beefier’.

Here’s what gets me. Can you imagine me trying to write excellent reports AND have a full-time job? You say, “That’s what everybody does” and I agree. I’m getting a shit grade and I’m home is no excuse. I take a marginal amount of blame for the grade I have but come the fuck on. A C+ for some of the pettiest reasons. I can write my heart out in a goddamn paper next week and be at the whim of her shit opinions.

I’ll be sure to highlight my issue with her at the end of the course survey.

Meanwhile, the fact is I have to start giving 10-page reports just to cover my ass.

There is that feeling again. That hate to depend on another human to get what I need. Fucking hate it.

This probably answers what I won’t be doing: reviewing people’s novels. 

I don’t have time for other people as it is.