Progress Inch by Inch

February 4th, 2018

I’ve had a separate journal for this project I’ve been working on. Any further notes on that topic will be written there in a notebook I keep. I have to say, I’m doing well as I creep forward each day. Just wish I had more money behind this — but the education is invaluable as I am forced to look at each step I move with careful precision. Slowly.

In other news, academia has gotten noticeably harder. Biology/Bio Lab is a little bit more intense than the previous classes. Interesting stuff, nonetheless, but whereas I complained earlier that I was skating through the work, I’m forced to actually concentrate. Which is why this journal entry is cut short so I can get some work done this morning early.

Advantage

January 30th 2018

The thing I’m working on isn’t 100% new. There are many companies working on the same thing but they have cash to see it through into prototyping faster than me. So, I wake up this morning to find out a couple of ex-Google engineers have revealed a similar project (a few phases in) for the same end-resulting idea.

Of course, a little put off, but I’m pressing forward regardless. My advantage and, believe it or not, goes back to my thoughts about ‘people’.

All these well-financed projects always, always, ALWAYS favor the rich, and particularly, the rich White communities. Rarely for the common person and NEVER for Black or Hispanic communities.

On one hand, no matter what I do, I can bank on institutionalized and general passive racism to own a market no one else will touch.

On the other hand, no matter what I do, the Black and Hispanic communities fail to embrace technology development, so I’ll always be the first of my kind to create in the community. The Black and Hispanic communities are consumers of technology — that’s for sure — but producers? Nope. Wide open field.

This is the heart of the ‘crab-basket’ life of wanting more in communities that don’t strive for more. It’s not the game plan to ‘ignore’ these communities and serve the rich. They can still be served. Maybe — just maybe — in the process of providing excellent service and continuing to be witnessed as progressive, the rest will follow. But it can’t be a selfish act. More on this probably in the year.

I’ll give that to ‘some’ white communities. Not all of them, but some. They have rat trap white trash communities like anyone else. But places like Silicon Valley, areas of San Francisco, etc are thriving.

No matter what’s developed, the Black and Hispanic communities are the last to get it. My market (when all is said and done) are all people below the affordability and access radar.

I can say this: the project is two fold. I’m 1000% interested in finding missing people still. A little technology to help with that goes a long way. I’ve noticed, each day I work on the project, I gain new open roads of ideas. This is why I’m seeing it through to the end. I might just solve a bunch of bucket-list like concepts all in one swoop.

All this talk of service for people and helping to find missing people. You’d almost think I actually cared about people.

Positive Slow Vibes

January 28th, 2018

Grades continue to soar. But coming up next week: biology and bio-lab. How lab is done online, remains to be seen.

And Math. If my degree program switch is to really happen as planned (I’m hearing March 2018), I’ll be getting College Algebra and Survey Calculus. I suck at math and this should be interesting.

Meanwhile, I still have nothing to report except that the job search is the usual: no responses or the occasional “Sorry, but we decided to etc, etc, etc.” Not giving up. Just trying to stay positive.

Keep in mind, my wife is still working so let the record show this is how I’m still surviving. It’s only been thirty-days since the last job. I’m anticipating a new job come February. Check back with me on that one in a couple of weeks.

While at home, I’m into school work and the project. Calling it ‘the project’ is unnecessarily mysterious and annoying but better to just leave it hanging and anonymous than early posting details that may or may not come to fruition. Bare with me for a few months longer — I’m actually on a set timeline I made to accomplish key steps of it.

I’m proud to say I’m on time. I set realistic goals and considering the algebra will come in handy (yep! Found a real world need for it’s use and you have to be an engineer to want to use it! After all, I am building something mechanical) — it seems what I’m doing is preordained or pleasantly coincidental.

So, in regards to the project, today I actually saw it coming together. Like, off-paper and the framework there. I’m actually doing it and I’m happy about it.

This weekend I’ve realized how much I stay in. With no friends and no desire to socialize, yesterday I felt trapped in my own apartment. The weather is okay. I could have gone to the library. I watched all the “Family Guy” I could possibly download. School work is all caught up and all I do is focus on mechanical engineering.

I admit, I could use a muse — a slim bodied, sexy chick — but I’ve learned my lesson over the years. Pussy is a distraction and nothing gets done. Good pussy stops all progress cold.

Get the money/fame/progress FIRST.

Productive

January 9th, 2018

Interesting thing: the other day, I was feeling the work I’m doing in school was lifeless and autonomous. I know it’s going in a great direction, but I was honestly feeling I had no particular joy out of it. I was going through the motions and was momentarily confused about what the end goal was. I started filling up my time with more educational pursuits: freecodecamp.org, studying Spanish, studying how to play the guitar, etc. None of it is fulfilling to the heart, but satisfying to the mind. Like eating healthy food you don’t necessarily care for, you know it’s good for you, but ‘meh’.

For a moment, it was all lifeless until I focused on that project I haven’t mentioned. I’m building something and that ‘spark’ — a purpose — revitalized me.

I won’t make the mistakes of the past: thinking a project can replace the progress in academics.

Regarding this project, it’s going to be bookmark in history. Having said that, I really have to start ‘wanting’ to talk to people because I’ll need to in order for this to work. In the meantime, I’m constructing. How am I paying for it while not working? Sigh … I depleted the Apple 401(k). It’s a risk worth taking. I’m planning and narrowing my vision to whats necessary to spend on production correctly.

This thing — I will succeed in.